Friday, October 14, 2005

learning to love you more

First of all, my old ob-gyn is FIRED.

We're on the relieved end of a week full of worry, but let me tell you, we had it bad. I'm not going to go into the whole story because everything is fine now, but on Monday night we basically feared that our baby had died. BAD NIGHT.

And the receptionist you rode in on, Doctor Suckball. And the receptionist you rode in on.

Tuesday morning we found ourselves another caregiver, somebody fan-fucking-tastic who put just about all of our fears to rest. She's a fabulous midwife, and the birth center is like this beautiful soft pink cave. Everybody who works there is warm and groovy.

And yesterday we had an ultrasound and the baby is doing great!! As soon as I get to a scanner, I'll scan in the little baby's profile. Woo-hoo! Our child has a head! And feet and legs and arms and hands and a beating heart! Our child is three inches long! There be a button nose! It's amazing. It's totally a living person in there.

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We celebrated by going to see the unbelievably good movie that we're nearly the last on earth to see, Miranda July's Me and You and Everyone We Know. See it, see it. It makes you be alive better. It's so shocking and tender and hilarious and sublime. And it did that rare thing of ending right at the second that you will it to end, right boom at the perfect moment where it couldn't get any better. What I wish is that I could wake up every morning in the movie theater, watching that movie on the big screen, and then magically find myself back in bed ready to get up and have my day. I would be a better person, a person who sees and feels more acutely.

Here is a delightful Miranda July website, Learning to Love You More, which is chock full of sweet assignments you can complete and send in to have posted on the site. It's a joy to browse. I've never done one, but I would really like to. Tell me if you do.

8 comments:

Callie said...

Congrats on the move to midwifery! My husband and I decided to go that route and are completely overwhelmed with the quality of care and the amount of information they give us with each visit. Very empowering!

Eve said...

Oh YES! I'm so glad that you Donald Trumped that insensitive sloth, and got yourselves a CAREgiver. Yay! And YAY! Lima Bean Rowley for having so many parts!!!! Way to grow!
Thank you for the reccomendation- I DO like to be alive more betterer myself, thank you! :)

jill said...

wow - what a week - and so glad it ends on a good note... can't wait to see the photos - i still look at my 19 month old's ultrasounds and cry.

also - that is a cool site...

feel good - and take care of yourself!

la Ketch said...

oh my freaking thank god. just thank the lord. you finally posted. and that the baby is alive and brilliantly appendaged! of course, thank god for that too... i agree that a midwife is good. my nephew was born at home with a midwife and it was a very good experience, she definitely knew what the deal was. much much love to all three of you. keep being alive and feeling it! i'm feeling it too...

Magazine Man said...

Whew! Scares are bad, but ob-gyns who are ass-hats during a scare worse (not sure exactly what happened with yours, but I bet we can sympathize).

Glad everything's okay with you and lil peanut...

Brikin Blog said...

Oh geez! Thank god everything is okay and you are out of the hands of the ass-hat and the evil sidekick receptionist. Great job finding the midwife and I'm sorry you had to go through that scare. We love you, Rowleys.

Also, thank so much for the Miranda July link. There's now a plan brewing in Brooklyn to film a reenactment of a terribly moving scene from "Return to Witch Mountain."

Peggy said...

Holy key-riced, I am so relieved that everything is okay.

I've had that LTLYM link on my favorites for three years, and until you said so in your post, I never realized it was Miranda July. I go every few months and check out the new stuff. It always makes me feel great all over. Like that movie, in fact. It makes perfect sense.

tina said...

Thank you so much, everyone, for all of your kind support! I'm now living in a world of ever-dwindling ass-hats.

You know, one person says "ass-hat" and then it sounds so fun that everyone wants to say it. It's just true.