what it's like right about now

Am I pregnant? I wonder if I'm pregnant. Do I look pregnant? I think I'm pregnant. I think I'm not pregnant. I think I am. I hope I am. I don't know if I am. I could be. Am I?

It's a week until I can take the test. Maybe more than a week. Maybe a week's good. I'll decide in a week, when I'll do it. I'll do it as soon as I can. I'll wait to do it until the test would be more definitive. I'll do it on Sunday. Wednesday. Thursday. Monday. No, Sunday.

Yeah, I probably am. I doubt I am. Relax. Relax. I should relax.

P.S. Finn today, to me:

I want to hold your face. (He holds it.)
I want to pick it up. (He pats it.)
I want to take it off you. (!)