Friday, September 12, 2008

proof of my own existence

I....writer's block....I....alive, I still alive, I.....

Many of you, so kind, so kind....I....you...such nice things you say about my writing....I...such appreciation....

My writing, I....I...what happened is I begin take my writing more seriously, like thing I...like a central fact of my life...like a thing I want do with all heart forever...and then...I...stop myself.

I hold self hostage.

I take me prisoner.

I hold me ransom.

To write like bad caveman is only way I get message to you from cave I hold myself hostage in. I no more good writing a while. I speak you without good writing, in order speak at all.

Why I hold me cave? I not know. Fear of thing. That probably it. Fear of thing, I think. That it.

Miss you, I...you there, reader. I have. By way. The.

What happen in Gallivanting Monkey life? Let catch up bit.

Finn used to never name thing. Like give name. For toy. No thanks. I say, "What name this bear?" And he like, "JUST BEAR." Like, "Just drop it." I keep try. I like, "What name this donkey?" Finn glare or sigh, then, "JUST DONKEY."

No more Finn no name. Finn now fully freewheeling thing-namer. Freewheeling in extreme. And nearly all thing name have same ending in common: dge. "Finn, what name this rabbit?" "Chadge." "Chadge?" "Chadge." Later, "Finn, look this dog. What name, you think?" And Finn all, "Woodge."

Some lately names animals in picture books from Finn:

Radge.
Choodge.
Chodge.
Choadge.
Widge.
Woodgie.


Some outlier names animals:

Cha (short "a" like "cat".)
Ra (also short "a")
Ree


Finn no longer shy namer. He spread this to more language, also. In morning, he enjoy exclaim, "Azazzy!" Like pizazz, but azazz, but -y. This only in morning. Like, morning in general bring feeling of azazziness not present in rest of day.

Also, I ask Finn, "What you dream last night?" And he reply, "Kitties." And I follow up, "What kitties do in dream?" And he say, "They flamshed."

Finn have other language construction I much enjoy. Is a double "is". Like, "What is that clock is?" First of all, question answered in question, right? Great, I think. But double "is" is extra joy. Example, I read Finn Peter Rabbit. Peter Rabbit eat too many radishes and french beans, get sick. Look for parsley. Mr. McGregor come after him, Peter Rabbit hide in shed, jump in water can, sneeze, all nearly lost as Mr. McGregor come after Peter, and then suddenly an interruption, "What is parsley is?!" Delivered in loud tone with face shoved suddenly in my arm.

"What is parsley is?" is now running joke between Finn me. He realize way he asked question very funny. I show him how he do it, he acknowledge very funny. Now we yell "WHAT IS PARSLEY IS?" suddenly at each other as non-sequitur, and shove head at other person. This always funny.

This, plus marvel and bang head against wall Sarah Palin, plus great new yoga meditation class, plus trying (you will not believe) write things to send places, this been Gallivanting Monkey life during self-hostage-taking month.

I not bother swear try write you more here, for swear only make self-captor-self angry. I whisper maybe I write you if captor nap. It not good writing, though, that I swear advance.

Note: This post been edited more thorough cavemaniness.

8 comments:

Scott Chicken said...

Welcome back! We glad you not dead. Also glad you talking like Crocs in Pearls Before Swine. Crocs dumb, but funny. You smart and funny. You not Croc.

This style writing fun! But hard...so I'll go back to actual sentences. I can totally relate to the cause of the writer's block and whatnot. Not that I'm pondering becoming a professional writer or anything (although if I end up laid off and out of a job I might look into it...) but in the few moments that I ponder such a thing I tend to freeze up. That's probably not a good sign, is it?

kyano said...

Scott right. You smart and funny. I heart writing you make.

I bang head on wall of Palin angst too. Must find something make self less ow-ey in heart to read. Not Kos, Kos make sad. Monkey of Gallivanting make smile.

girlysmack said...

Yay! I am so happy you are back! Even if you sound like Cookie Monster and are therefore making me want a cookie.

(Even if my comment disappeared into thin air the first time and I had to retype it and it is not very funny or clever and so not really worth the effort of typing twice, but there you have it.)

Heather said...

I'm sorry, bad news... you genius!! (oh, I have cocktails. Yum!)

Paige said...

Thanks for writing again! I'm a big fan of your writing, in whatever style you choose. Keep it up! And I'm not even gonna comment on Sarah Pa... see? Not even gonna bother finishing that sentence. That whole topic just brings me pain. And today is not about pain-- it's about the return of the Gallivanting Monkey!!! Woo hooo!

Eve said...

Oh yayaya. I'm so happy you are even writing about not writing- I'll take it. It is all excellent.

Finn told me to tell you that there is nothing to fear but fear itself is.. and what the f is Sarah Palin is!!?? Wee wise man.

YogaLia said...

Here is a rope.

I am throwing it into your cave.

You grab one end.

Me and all the rest of the people who love you are on the other.

We will do all the pulling.

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